Calm down everyone....it is how it looks. My life has suddenly turned funkytown. I haven't done anything social for an entire week. My New Year's Eve plans include me sitting on my couch watching tv alone. Does anyone have any suggestions to help improve my social life? It can't get much worse from here.

HECK YES! IT'S A GIRL!!!!

IN YOUR FACE TED!

Whoo hooo! I'm finally done Christmas shopping! This year was a record year, it only took me two shopping trips to get everything I needed.

I would lick a frozen flagpole for $5.00. Any takers?

Come on people, I've got a college loan to pay.

I'm blogging at work. This means one of two things: A) I've got nothing better to do, or B) People won't leave me alone about not blogging. *Survey says B*

I now have bangs. For those of you who know me, I haven't had bangs since I was a small lass in New Boston. They look pretty good, if I do say so myself. I have also discovered the glories of diet sprite...it's like bubbly water :) Work is doing this thing called 'why weight' and brought in Jarrod from Subway to kick it off...they also have strategically placed scales EVERYWHERE in all of the buildings. I can't pass up a scale (which is why I don't own one) without standing on it. Is it fair to take 5 lbs off for clothes and shoes?

Okay, back to work.


Melissa: you owe me a dollar

Now that I think I've ran everyone off from looking at my blog daily, I will resume posting...that way if I post about boring things the only person I disappoint is me.

Yesterday my good friend from college got married. She and her fiance/husband paid for everything themselves. That was very respectable. I can't believe she's married! Kind of makes me feel like I'm way behind everyone. My sister's pregnant and moving away to North Carolina. Everyone's life is changing but mine. I guess I don't really mind it though. One day I'll get out of this hell hole and start a real life, but until then I'm happy in my studio apartment with my dog and cat.

The movie "Shall We Dance" was pretty good, well, better than I thought it would be. There was a very awesome part of the movie where Susan Sarandon's character said "people get married so someone can witness their life." It was a really long explanation, but I am sticking with that.

I bought a Wisp air freshener today. It's on the lowest setting and still burning my eyes. Good stuff.

I went and did it again. I bought Message in a Bottle, with Robin Wright Penn and Kevin Costner. Granted my favorite author is Nicholas Sparks, who wrote the romantic novel that the movie is based on, so I shouldn't have expected any less than total waterworks. Why do I love the stories that will never ever happen in real life? Darn estrogen.

Yay groceries!
I resituated my apartment this weekend, it looks pretty cool. You do realize there are only about three ways to situate a studio apartment...

This week at work I am at my regular job from 6A-10A, then at the support office from 10A-3P. That pretty much sucks, since there's no way in hell I'll get out of there until 4, and then I'll still look bad for leaving an hour earlier than all of the other office people.
I got my first "call out" this morning at the daily manager's meeting, by none other than the VP of the plant. Here's how it went:

Him: Well, everyone's doing a great job, except staffing. What's your problem staffing?
Me: The applicant pool is currently growing, and we'll meet the numbers soon.
Him: It's show time, staffing. You've got one chance to show me what you've got.
Me: Okay.

It will go much better in my dreams tonight, when the VP praises my good work and tells me he needs a new boss and wants me to be it.

Well, it's time for me to go watch the flip floppin Olympics...Tonight is the high dive. Maybe someone will do a belly buster. :)

I went and saw Princess Diary 2 today. Romantic comedies are bad for me (and all people). They pull me into the movie and make me wish my life were better. I always walk out of movies with a horrible feeling in my stomach, knowing my life will never be like that. Damned movies.

Please let me have a good Friday the 13th!!! My horoscope says it's going to be a good day.

Regarding oldest sister's blog about the Smokey the Bear incident, the following is how I remember it....in my 4 year old world:

**Begin 1985 Flashback**WOW! I have Creative Play (preschool) today! I can't wait to see what I get to do today!! I am in afternoon preschool, so we wait until General Hospital goes off, then hop into the car (making sure there aren't any cats under the car, since we have about 50).

What's this? A fire truck! How cool!! What's that giant bear doing by the fire truck? Holy crap! It sounds like my mom's in there...but my mom's not Smokey the Bear, or is she? Why won't Smokey talk to me anymore? **End 1985 Flashback**

My mom repeatedly denied the whole thing until one day I was flipping through my personal files and found a clipping of that very day. My entire preschool sitting on a fire truck, with Smokey the Bear standing right beside the firetruck. The caption read, "Jane Heeke plays Smokey the Bear"

BUSTED!!!

I went and did it again...I got the mystic tan. For those of you who know me and my pale skin, you will probably be amazed at how stupid I am for doing this. I think this spray on tan thing only works for people with base tans. I will show them all my beautiful tan!!! Bwa ha ha ha!!!!!

Either way, I wanted a tan for at least part of the summer, darn it. Stay tuned, I'll let you know how it works out. :)

First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTINA!

Second, since oldest sissy did a tribute, I'll do one too:
26 years ago, before I was a twinkle in my parents' eyes, my sister Kristina was brough into this world at the Tell City hospital. Little did she know she would be the "middle sister" I think she grew up well....she may be the monkey in the middle, but she's everyone's favorite sister.

Feliz Cumpleaños! Alles Gute zum Geburtstag! Happy Birthday!

I just got back from seeing the movie "The Village." I thought it was very good...you know, one of those movies you walk out smiling because of the awesome ending. I called my older sister, the one from the big city of Indy, to tell her how much of a cool movie it was. Apparently she saw it earlier this weekend and hated it. Yeah, so there are some parts where the lightbulb goes on and you start asking questions, but overall it was a good movie.

Lesson of the day:

Blind people are pretty crafty :)

Put that in your pipe and smoke it!

Boy, does my neck hurt! Here's why.....
At my "family reunion," in which about 10 family members attended (thank you SO much Miller "Family") I was messing around in a tire swing. Turns out 22 year olds should not play on tire swings. Middle sister decides we need to play horseshoes....and decides to help me out of the tire swing. Helping means holding the swing up until my arms give out and I fall to the ground. :P
That didn't hurt nearly as bad as 95% of my mom's family skipping out of the reunion. If any of those "family" members knew how much time and thought was put into this by my mom and aunt, they would have went. This year's theme was a hillbilly party. Maybe it hit too close to home for them. Unfortunately,  they missed out on a really fun time. I hope all of said "family members" read my blog and realize they let everyone down by not showing.  What is ONE  afternoon a YEAR to visit with FAMILY going to hurt them?  Apparently, it's too often.  I mean, I realize I know EVERYTHING about my aunts, uncles and cousins by reading their Christmas Newsletter sent to me with a family picture taken on their fancy pants vacations...but I would much rather see them in person. Priorities people! 
Anyway....aside from being angry at those formerly known as aunts, uncles and cousins (excluding the ones who attended the much worked for reunion) I had a pretty fun weekend!  

 One day I want to buy a house. When is the day you wake up and are an adult? Is it in your 30's? 40's? I have a feeling it's when you give up your social life for a kid. When is the perfect time to have a kid? Some say do it early while you're young, some say wait until you're older and financially secure. I think if I waited until I was older, I would never have a kid, since it's been all about me for so long, why change it?  At this time in my life, I feel if I'd have a kid right now, I would love my dog more. I think that's a good sign I'm not ready for parenthood.

Dude, why did Scott Peterson kill his wife? Why would anyone kill a pregnant person? I'm never getting married, that way I won't be killed by my beneficiary (since I'm worth millions, you see)...

I can tell a storm is brewing. My dog and cat are acting all crazy. Those crazy mammals.

Wow! Where have I been? Turns out that I love to sleep. A lot.
 
Went home this weekend to work at the church picnic.Two hours of calling Bingo later, I was really tired...plus I had about 5 hours of sleep the night before. It was worth it though. :) I love to do stuff at the church, it just feels like home.
 
Terre Haute sucks. Just thought I'd get that out there.
 
Does anyone want to support me financially while I pursue my dream of having a bowflex body? I want to be like the 50 year old lady on the commerical who looks 30....(psst...I think she has had some work done)
 
Time for bed!

Two things I hate:
1: People calling their children/siblings Bubby or Sissy.....Who the heck decided that Bubby is a good name for a loved one?
2: Whoever decided to price medicine for dogs and cats....I took my dog and cat to the vet today, and walked out $140 lighter for stupid yearly shots.

Has anyone seen my mojo?

What a craptastic weekend.

Had to go to Louisville for a wedding..stayed at a crappy hotel...lost a big chunk of weekend driving.

I am going to see The Notebook tonight, hopefully that won't be crappy too.

Well your Happy, yes thats right your so happy, so
pretty and witty and if i go on any more i will
have to pay for the rights of this song so,
great jop your one of the lucky ones.


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My inner child is six years old!

Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.


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Want to know what the wierdest thing I've seen all day has been? A video of a cat riding a motorcycle. That's pretty messed up.

I am thinking of getting a specialized license plate on my car. It will either be A)ISU Alumni or B) Breast Cancer Awareness. The ISU plate will look really cool, since I am one and I am currently paying (and my parents have paid) a whole lot of money to that institution. The Breast Cancer Plate will go towards a better cause, and I would like to see that disease eradicated as soon as possible. Seeing someone die of cancer isn't cool. I will take votes, and then make up my own mind. :)

Did you know that if you shoot a gun on an airplane and it goes through the window that the airplane won't expode due to the air pressure changes? I just saw that on Myth Busters. That's a pretty cool show.

Nothing says congratulations like someone telling you that you can't do it.

Being told "there's no way you can do this" only strengthens my motivation to prove I can.

Flashback:

When I was a freshman in high school, I had issues with my self esteem and ability to play tennis, although I had been playing since 2nd grade. I would always say "I can't do this" The team lockers each had a laminated paper, where the coach would write what we should work on each week. He would also add a sticker for each win. Everyone on the team would have different messages each week, except for me. Mine never changed from "Be positive."

Flash Forward to Present:

Some where between there and here, I gained positivity and confidence. I like to say to myself "I am an adult, and I will do what I want." I put thought and feeling into most every action I take. If only other people would see that in me, the world would be a better place.

PS. That laminated paper still says "Be positve" and is still hanging on my bedroom door. Every time I see it, I am reminded of who I was then and who I am now.

Random question:

Does loving wine make you a wino? I love wine from Easley's Winery in Indy.


I went to Hobby Lobby on Saturday and got a really cool new wood frame. It fits 5 4x6 pictures going straight down. It's hanging on my wall, pictureless. I ordered some pics online though, from my digital camera..and those should be arriving soon. If anyone wants to buy me a picture quality printer, that would be awesome. :)

Good news!!! I now have food in my refrigerator! I would say it's been a good two weeks of opening it and going "oh yeah it's empty" and then going into the pantry and going "oh yeah, it's empty" and then going to the nearby fast food place.

Okay, I guess that's all for now....

Okay, so I caught the infomercial shopping bug. I am, however, smart enough to not actually buy anything, but do internet research on the products. Two days ago, I was so close to buying washcloths with tanning stuff on them that I had my credit card in my hand, the number dialed and was waiting to push send. Thank god I have one shred of reality in my head that stops me from actually purchasing crap.

This summer I am also addicted to swimsuits. Even though I shouldn't be, I'm all about online shopping for swimwear. The only thing I have actually bought so far is a bikini bottom that goes with a top I have, since the one I bought first looked really stupid on me....(curse you boy shorts).

I have to go take a shower now, since I just ate at Garfields and now smell like the onions off my philly cheese steak sandwich.

Amanda's Menagerie

I am dog sitting my sister's dog. Who knew that adding one more animal to my studio apartment would make such a difference? I actually love having a full house. It's a total zoo! Sleeping is another issue in itself. My dog and cat like to snuggle up to me after playing for like 40 minutes on the bed, whilst Caesar (sisters' dog) loves to play for around a solid hour, then on and off the entire night. I have discovered putting him in his crate is a good idea.

I went to a wedding yesterday, and it was only 30 minutes long. I can't even imagine how much the wedding cost per minute, considering the flowers, tuxes, dresses and church fees. It makes the idea of running off to the bahamas to get married look good.

As I wasted an hour of my life watching American Idol for the second time this season, I noticed that Fantasia "bo bo" whatever her last name is sounds like Mary J. Blige, and the other Hawaiian girl bears a striking resemblance to J. Lo. The season finale was packed of washed up actors and actresses. I thought wow, I guess that's one way you know you're not on the A List...being an honored guest on American Idol. In one of the out takes from the show it proved my point: the makeup girl didn't know who Barry Manilow was...

Is there anything to do in Terre Haute this weekend that doesn't involve the white trash fest?

RANDOM THOUGHT:

Does anyone out there remember the Wuzzles cartoons and stuffed animals? I think I am the only person on the whole plantet who remember them. I have one at my apartment right now. It's Hoppapotamus. She's a blue hippo/rabbit hybrid. I don't recall giving her a real name, I think I just called her Hoppapotamus. When I was on vacation out west Hoppapotamus married my sister's stuffed animal Boo Bear. We sewed wedding rings on their fingers. Hoppapotamus and I were inseperable, until I got a stuffed yellow bunny. Now I have passed Hoppapotamus onto my dog Maddy who loves to chew the plastic eyeballs off everything.

Love-
The 80's child.

Work has been OK so far. I spent an entire week sitting around watching people do stuff. Next week I actually start knowing what's going on. For the next two weeks my schedule will be 12-8 for training, then who knows after that? I've been told 6AM-3PM. Thursday I played coed softball, I was the catcher :) That's the perfect place for me, the social bug...because I can talk to the umpire, the outfield, and batters. I made an out, and got on base every time I was up to bat. My legs are so sore from catching that I can barely walk, boy, if that's not a sign I'm out of shape, I don't know what is.
Tomorrow I am going to a birthday party, a graduation party and church.
Maddy and Prince Albert(a.k.a Al)have been getting along great. Al loves to clobber Maddy, and Maddy likes to boss Al around. I can't wait to see how it's going to be when he grows up.

Well, today is the last day of my unemployment. I start my new job tomorrow. For the next two weeks I'll be training with my manager, and some in Bloomington. Lots of people have told me I'm lucky for getting a job so soon, hopefully I'll agree with them after getting to know my coworkers.
We were supposed to go to the Indy Zoo on Friday, but the rain sort of put the brakes on that. Instead we took a tour of the Easley and Chateau Thomas wineries. Great stuff. I purchased a wine rack and my three friends in total bought 6 bottles of wine.
Today I'm going to Burlington Coat Factory for some new work tops and maybe a new pair of work pants.

Yeah I'm an idiot. I thought sea horses were human sized for like thirty seconds. Anyway, I'm going to the Indy Zoo today :) YAY!
I got a job offer from a local company yesterday. They offered me the position where I would be in charge of employees. I am mulling it over today and will call them back.

I just got back from my first interview since my position was eliminated last Friday. It was for an on site coordinator position, which would be ok. I am sort of wanting to get out of this town, but right now I don't have that much experience to offer any employer. I got a cable modem today! YAY! Once I remember how to put pics on here, I'll put one on of my new kitten (Prince Albert In A Can).

She's BAAAACK!! Stay posted for more!

I found a place to live today. I'm pretty excited, even considering I won't have cable or a phone. :) I'm looking forward to many nights alone eating ramen noodles staring at my fish.
What else is new with me? Not too much, just preparing myself for a move on the 6th. I could have moved in this weekend, but I still have to take care of a few things first.

What an odd few days I've been having. We should just leave it at that. Pretty much I'm homeless though.

Eating pizza three times in one day is not a good idea.

Happy Valentine's day! My big day entails buying a new bed and some other stuff and moving it to my sister's house. I need some advice on what to put over the giant disney mural that's painted on the wall in my new room. I don't feel like I'm going to be moving, but maybe it will soak in when I'm really there.
I've been looking for a new car, but can't find anything I'm crazy about. Maybe I'll wait until the spring or something, when I've got time to care about it. I am so busy at work that I dream about what I didn't finish at night. When I worked at Holiday World, I would dream every night that I was at work and was going to get fired for sleeping on the job.
Aside from that, I got a really cute valentine card from mom and dad. :) It made me feel really special, just like it does every year. I was hoping to get some flowers delivered to me at work or something, but I was really too busy to pout about it. No one in HR got anything...what does that say about the bunch of people I work with?
So my trip to NY was pushed back to mid-March, but I think it will be better then anyway because it will be warmer. Ok, well it's time to start my day.

Busy week, but a fun one. I finally feel 22, not 42 (no offense to anyone 42). I'm having a good time at work for the most part. My boss comes back from Canada tomorrow, so that means the party's over and I can't be walking all over the plant to visit people whenever I want to. Either way, I got that out of my system.

Today was a decent Monday, even though I had new hire orientation as well as a new salaried employee at the same time. I bet about half the people who I hired today quit because they changed the shift on them right after orientation. They were supposed to work three ten hour days, but it changed to five eight hour days. Two people came into HR and bitched at me because of this. I said to them "It is your supervisor's decision, and your application did say that you are available to work any shift on short notice." It's like these people aren't appreciative that they even HAVE a job, they have to get a FULL TIME job and it has to be convenient hours for THEM. Total bullshit.
I have two weeks to hire twenty part time call center people. I have no idea how I'm going to do this. My boss is in Canada helping those helpless morons with their call center hiring (which they've had months to do), so that leaves ME in the "Employment Department."
One good thing about snow: You can see if someone has been in your yard.
One bad thing about snow: It gets in your shoes.
The following is the most ridiculous thing I found out about my workplace:
When it snows or there is a chance of snow the HR gang wears jeans "in case they are stranded on the way to work." isn't that bizarre?
I really think I should pack up and move away.

You are going to Marry orlando Bloom. He will
always treat you right and is very romantic. He
will do anything for you. He is very polite and
has deep brown eyes and is very good looking
(which is another plus!). He can make anythind
cheesy look really good (like sliding down
stairs on a shield shooting arrows or wearing
pointy ears for example). Congrats!!


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Things I've discovered in the past few days:

1. Going out and staying sober while everyone else gets drunk is a lot of fun.
2. Going out with coworkers is not the best of ideas
3. Distilled water doesn't boil
4. Terre Haute is a small town
5. It's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be
6. My hair is never going to grow out

Since I promised to write, here it is:

In the past month at work, I have hired 90 people. It is a never ending process. My boss is going to Canada for the entire week next week, so hopefully things will slow down so I can catch up. I have been attending daily meetings for our new system we're going live with in mid-Feb, plus my regular job crap. My temporary worker has had some weird personal life stuff happen to her that she's bringing to work, and it's affecting her performance.

I went out with some co-workers this past week. It was a bunch of much needed fun. :)

I have the early stages of carpal tunnel syndrome, and it really sucks. I need to start paying attention to how I type and sit and all that crap. I have a bottle of ibuprofen at my desk to use three times daily, but that doesn't help the numbness of my fingers. :(

Notice how every paragraph I start begins with I? You see, it's my blog so I can do that, otherwise it would look pretty stupid.

Aphrodite/Eros


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Sooo...I haven't posted for a few days...sorry about that. I promise to write more tomorrow :) Love Manda!

Ve are alvays vatching you.... Love- Zee Dogs

YAY! I finally have pics :)
This is Morris, the stray cat....isn't he a cutie?

WORK SUCKS

I had a really fun weekend. This is the first time in about a year that I went out twice with friends. I wasn't over 21 until the last half of my senior year of college, and by that time I felt like an old housewife, and going out was for crazy college kids who were single. My friend Crystal and my sistesr are about the only people I go out with anyway, and they're all still around, so I'm pretty fortunate in that aspect.
Gosh darn it, the Colts lost today, but the last two minutes of the game were exciting. I was supposed to go out and watch it, but old housewife mode kicked in and thought better. "I need to rest up for work tomorrow." What 22 year old says that?

What a wonderful day I had today. I had to be there at 7 for new hire orientation, then after that I went into a hiring frenzy. I'm halfway done hiring people for the warehouse, and only need 2 more for another department. I really hate not getting to know the new hires, but most of them will quit anyway. I left my desk a total mess, but I had to leave right then because I had already worked over by an hour.
So tonight I'm going out with my temp worker. We're going to the Terminal, which is one of my most favorite bars in town.
Well my dog Maddy almost just ate my other dog. Seems they're fighting over a paper plate. I think it's time to go separate those two.

Things I like:
Anything outdoors
Watching movies
Cooking stuff
Shopping
Learning new things
Taking road trips
Developing my professional career
Playing with my dogs
Dreaming about the future
Making comforters
Visiting with family
Taking part in community activities
Watching people in their every day lives
The Sopranos
Meeting new people

Here's something to chew on...

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part,but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Today was pretty decent, could have been better, could have been worse. I try my best not to bring my personal feelings to work, since it has no business being there. Not that there's anything so horrible about my personal life at the time, but I try to make everyone's day a little brighter, and that's hard to do when you're thinking about other crap. This one guy I hired in today asked me if I got paid to be so happy...I thought that was really funny! It seems I use all my friendliness at work and am drained at the end of the day. It's hard work being nice to people all the time.
I'm looking very forward to going to NY for training in February. It will be a lot of much needed fun. My boss said I'll have time to do fun stuff, and I'd really like to stretch my legs out on the town. Watch me get mugged and killed.
Today was the first time in about a month I went grocery shopping. For some reason Wal-Mart just doesn't appeal to me like it did in college. I did find my favorite beer there though, Green Light by Rolling Rock. It's awesome and is low carb, not like I care, but it's a bonus.

Did you ever "forget" to tell someone part of a story so they wouldn't be upset? I have found through experience that honesty is the best policy, no matter how upset the other person will get, they will get more upset if they find out the truth.
At work if someone messes up, people will respect you if you are up front and honest about it.
At home, if you go out with friends, and not tell your significant other who exactly was there, generally that's a sign that something's going on.
With friends, if you need to tell them something that can potentially hurt their feelings, the best policy is to be honest and gentle when confronting them. If your friend found out you were hiding something from them, they'd probably be even more angry with you, and may even possibly end the friendship. What is worth more to you? Hiding something that can be discussed and cleared up, or taking the risk of losing that person forever?
Today I got home early enough to watch an episode of Dismissed on MTV...that is where that tangent came from. I hate reality tv.

A very big thanks to my sister Kristina for changing my blogskin. I feel much more at home looking at the cute puppies on my blog! She spent a very long time fixing some problem and I feel bad. I can't believe tomorrow's already Monday :( I have to go in at 7 again for orientation, so that means I get to leave at 3:30 which is one good thing. I spent my entire day at my sister's house watching the Colts game as well as the first season of the Simpsons. I hate the animation on the first season, but it's still funny. This morning I used my new body wash and lotion and I still smell like vanilla :) (such a relaxing smell)
Very soon I'm going to start posting pics... YAY!

jlljgil

GO COLTS!!!

Today my old boss from ISU and I went to lunch and saw a movie. We ate at Applebees (which opens at 11 btw so don't go any earlier), which was pretty good. I ordered nachos that came served on this huuuuge platter thing. I asked the waiter (Kaleb) why he didn't tell me it was going to be that big and he said "I like people to make their own mistakes, I don't tell people what to order. I like to guide, but not direct." Gee, you think he's a theater major? DRAMA
So after lunch we went to see House of Fog and Sand. There wasn't too much sand in the movie, but there was a lot of fog and a house. Basically the movie goes like this:
A depressed divorcee doesn't open her mail for 8 months and gets evicted because she didn't pay some taxes that she wasn't supposed to pay anyway. The cop who evicts her "gives her some help getting set up at a hotel" and this Iranian family buys her house before at auction. She hooks up with the cop, he leaves his family and they continuously threaten the Iranians to get out of the house because it's theirs. That whole part wasn't bad, it was the ending that made me feel not so warm and fuzzy inside. If you want to know the ending, I'll blog it next time, some people don't like to hear the endings of movies.
I left the theater feeling very odd.
Jeanine and I went to the mall for a bit and shopped at Hallmark, where I bought a Hazelnut Coffee Yankee candle good enough to drink. I also got some Warm Vanilla Sugar body wash and lotion, which smells good enough to eat.
I am now hanging out at my house wondering if I should either make dinner or just skip it. I'm hungryish, but not hungry enough to actually make anything. I am that lazy.
My neighbor Shaneeka (I kid you not) woke me up this morning at 2AM again, but I fell asleep before I could get motivated to kick her ass. I'll get you yet Gadget...(evil cat laughter)

My temporary employee is doing great, the only problem is that she takes forever to do anything. I am thinking maybe it's because she's learning. Her name is Lisa and she's 21 and is pretty cool. So far she hasn't taken any of my workload off yet, since she's still kind of in that whole "get in the way" phase, but I definitely see potential.

Today I had new hire orientation at 7AM. It went fairly smooth, and I really hope these people stay. Waking up at 6 really sucks, especially when you're stupid ass neighbor wakes you up every morning at 2AM with "AAH HA HA...WHOO HA HA...AAAAAAAAA" Apparently she finds something very funny every morning. I swear to my blog if that loud piece of crap wakes me up tomorrow morning any time before 9 she will know who I am up close and personal.

More later.

I called off the wedding last night. Nick was ok with it, he seemed indifferent. It wasn't anything anyone suggested to me, actually it was. Kristina said "I don't want you to make the same mistakes I did." Generally she's right about everything...so I thought long and hard and decided not to settle yet. I kind of feel like a giant knot in my stomach loosened up, but it is still there.
I've been super busy at work and am stressed about it. Tomorrow my temporary worker starts, so I'll be happy then!

Today I got a really great letter of thanks from a hiring manager. It was really awesome. So who was the person who told me to drink a beer? I'm very curious....

So is it bad to not do something because you don't want to, for example, clean the house or cook dinner? When I get home from work all I want to do is relax, not clean or do dishes or anything. Does that make me a bad person?
I think I either need to:
A. grow up
B. become the person who's 30 and won't settle down...

My New Year's resolutions:
1. To sew at least one comforter each month
2. To take better care of myself
3. To not be afraid to say what I think (unless it is better I keep my mouth shut)
4. To make dinner at least once a week
5. To become a more spiritual person